I have been spending a lot of time developing new projects.
New is exciting but it’s not easy.
When you have been given an idea you can wait on it or try it.
I am firm believe in trying it. If it doesn’t work I move on.
If it works I keep PUSHING.
Recently, I have realized how damaging looking at other projects can sabotage your present work.
Instead of letting my visual eyes rob me I’ve decided to be fueled by other’s accomplishments.
My projects aren’t crafted in perfection. It would be arrogant of me to think no-budget-low-budget projects look like a Hollywood box office hits.
My projects are crafted in faith. Faith isn’t based on what I see; It’s based on what I can’t see.
A blog turned into a book idea; a book idea turned into a script idea; a script became auditions; auditions became rehearsals; rehearsals became filming; filming became editing; editing became promotion; promotions become premiering.
In the midst of all of this I am working on weddings, writing a book (Single and Authentic) with an editor, crafting another project which I can’t speak of, collaborating with other brands, shooting music videos, attending doctors appointments,
preparing for surgery, serving my husband, serving my local church and still making sure I make time for myself.
What makes this journey worth it isn’t the accomplishments. What makes it worth is standing in the midst of God’s will for myself and moving forward without being able to see through the fog of what’s in front of me.
It’s not easy! I get frustrated, discouraged, annoyed, irked, told no, I re-casted several times, my money is still funny, I don’t have everything “I need” for what I see. Yet and still I keep moving forward.
I remember when this journey started and I dreamed BIG! I dreamed so BIG that it caused a lot turbulence in my life. I wouldn’t change any of it. Jesus has used every single step to perfect me for His work in my life. That work isn’t to make me known but to make Him known.
I’m not interested in the Oscars but if they open the door one day for the street smart nerd that is from South Jersey they better be ready for what comes out of my mouth! I “ain’t” got nothing but Jesus for you.
He’s transformed me in such a way that I would never deny Him. Every bump in my pothole filled life is helping to make me more like Him. I’ve had some MAJOR conversations in the last week and if I hadn’t been hard pressed on every side in an uphill battle I wouldn’t be able to handle what’s coming my way.
Don’t look around, look up! That has been my focus meditation. I can’t look at or be concerned with what I don’t have or what could be. I have to be concerned with the little mustard seeds in my hand now.
Jesus is daily showing Himself faithful. His faithfulness is my only consistent in life. I am a work in progress. I am brave. I am aggressive. I am broken. I am daily in need of grace. I am creative. I daily press to get out what’s inside. I don’t full understand what is inside of me but I will die empty! Journey on reader, journey on!