Waking up I knew it was not a great day for my flesh. It had to die or I would.
25 minutes to get ready and I still had to speak to God even before I put my clothes on.
Some days this is my life.
I need my time with God and when its minimal I am more prone to get an attitude.
What is the attitude? Its my flesh. I haven’t completely surrendered it to God.
Lately, I have been noticing my flaws more than even.
The flaws that I see are so nasty that I would rather not be involved in any ministry. I repent and keep fighting. Being an overcomer in many areas but the fact that sin dwells in my flesh heavily upsets me.
I love the Lord and sin separates me from him. I am not doing any overt sin but just the fact that I sin (consciously and unconsciously) though less than last week or even less than a year ago and even though I am quicker to repent it is still nasty and I hate it.
Its this sin, these flaws that make me realize that I am human and continually need this loving, forgiving Savior. The very scripture that brought me into the kingdom (Romans 7:14-25) is the one that I have to consistently confront.
We are free but it takes a fight. I am fighting. I have been fighting but the sensitivity of my heart is rising. I am the first to admit I am not perfect. Though I proclaim the gospel the same words I preach, speak, teach and live are the same words that convict me on a daily bases. It is these words that encourage, rebuke and correct me.
This blog is a babble but it is needed for my soul.
I am not perfect. I am not every woman. I am not superwoman. I can’t help everyone. I am not perfect. However, through Him I am strong.
Through Him and meditating on His goodness I am able to live a life of abundance and freedom. My flaws are apparent. Your flaws are apparent. But He doesn’t want us to rest in our flaws. Instead, to bring our flaws to Him the Father who is a just God (Luke 18:6-8).
The fact that He has welcomed me into His kingdom continues to baffle me. I am full of flaws but I won’t stay like this. My flaws can be corrected. They can and will be molded, pruned and shaped.
This is a process of pruning (John 15:2).
